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man o man [29 Jun 2005|04:01pm]
lets see.... HYPOCRIT. "you don't say it to my face", look, ur talking shit and not saying it to my face. I'm saying it on here cuz its turning into a battle of words, i know ur gonna read this. why i haven't said it do ur face is cuz i haven't seen you yet, and i don't care to. If u want me to say it to ur face, i will, but when you get an ass beating, don't say i warned you.
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Late [29 Jun 2005|04:05am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well, been awhile since i've updated. I can't sleep, so why the fuck not make a new post? I'll start with going over the past few days, fairly uneventful but hey... Friday seems like a good day to start...
Friday- Woke up late, as usual lately. Showered, did shit. Went to dad's in Enfield and headed to the races at Stafford. Got in free. After races, went back to dad's for a little bit, talked, went home.
Saturday- Woke up at 9 after just a few hours of sleep. Went and got breakfast at Mccy D's. Went to coach baseball game. Found out from Jimmy it was last game of the season. After game, went home, showered, got ready. Drove with sis down to Dave and Denise's in Enfield. Followed Limo to wedding/reception place. Many on goings there. I'm sure if i got hammered, would of been much more fun, but after realizing my sister was getting shit faced, i decide to not drink, sober up from the tiny buzz i had and be able to drive home. Saw the most breathtaking girl i have ever seen, and if they ever end up reading this, I'll blush my ass off lol. Saw my dad shitfaced, that was kinda funny lol.
Sunday- Lazy Day. Just chilled around the house, watched race, not really much of anything.
Monday- Just a blur, don't remember what i did.
Tuesday- Got up, did usual morning routine. Went got phone card. Got some lunch, drove around in convertable for a little bit. Danny Viets came on by. Then Andy and Amber got here. The 4 of us went and got danny's friend Josh. Went to friendly's. Came to my house. Fred came over. Played poker. Always a fun time. Some memorable quotes of the night (both made by me) "Look, they're still four playing!" and "I'm gonna drop a duece on the table". Poker went a few hours with Viets being dubbed the River Queen. Now i sit here at freaking 4:16 AM contimplating shit.

I tend to think too much. I don't like it. Past few days, actually weeks, maybe even months, I don't think I ever been a happier person. I always thought it took having someone else, someone i devote all my heart to, to make me happy. I'm finding out, I can do it on my own, something I hadn't had to deal with in a Long, Long time. I guess I always got things to look forward to. But its just times like now, where I just feel lonely and want to have someone to be the center of my world. I just want that morning to come that I can wake up to holding that special person in my arms.
To end, I know I can seem "cocky" at times these days, I guess its better than being negative. The following exert from a convo gives me hope I don't have to worry bout being lonely much longer. Hopefully by posting it, it doesn't make me seem cocky....

CLeMSpeED98: but i'm 10 fold better of a person i use to be and u know there weren't that many guys that compare then either
melis887: thats why i'm still trying to find one

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[18 Jun 2005|01:15am]
WE ARE FRIENDS NO MORE
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Sleepless nights leave for posts of randomness [29 May 2005|03:04am]
Ok. So i can't sleep so i'm just reading livejournals or my friends, and maybe looking at what some of the people on there friends post page say. I found this really hippocritical and wanted to point it out....

Exert from Jackie's Post

"Find a guy.. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who will make an ordinary moment seem magical. Find the guy that you can't do anything but smile when you see him. And when he smiles you know he needs you. Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for a guy.. Who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says.. THAT'S HER."
I see this thing all over the place. Almost every girl I know has posted this somewhere at some point in time.
yea... its true. thats what most of the girls are looking for... well its funny... cuz if u ask me how many guys i've found in the past week who have said i was beautiful (as opposed to sexy) i would need more than one hand...
thats what MOST girls are looking for....
unfortunately for all you guys who are reading this... thats not what i want... at all.

Now, in that entry, xthe2ndtimex responds to jackie's post, "cheer the hell up. and no I didnt notice cuz I dont see u enough to notice. and that quote sums up everything wrong with women in the world. Cuz when a guy truly cares about you, he wont have to tell u anything for u to know that ur amazing. thats what I try to do everyday."

In xthe2ndtimex journal, he makes an entry,
"Find a guy.. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who will make an ordinary moment seem magical. Find the guy that you can't do anything but smile when you see him. And when he smiles you know he needs you. Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for a guy.. Who kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says.. THAT'S HER."

I see this thing all over the place. Almost every girl I know has posted this somewhere at some point in time.

Well guess what...Im right here."

A note to add to this, xthe2ndtimex made his journal post before commenting on Jackie's post. Well its clearly obvious that he is a hypocrit because he says he is that guy all girls r looking for, but when reads jackie isn't looking for that kind of guy, xthe2ndtimex retracts what he originally said in saying he tries to make someone feel special in ways other than words.

People F'ning amaze me
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Writing for the Sake of Writing [28 May 2005|04:30am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So anywho, its 4:30 AM Saturday morning and I still haven't fallen asleep. I've had a fucked up sleep pattern but yeah, its been getting bad and thats gotta change. How will I do that? Force my lazy ass out of bed early no matter how tired I'll be, maybe I'll be able to start going to bed at a reasonable time. Now thats out of the way, I'll go onto random rants.

Know what really gets me peaved? People who mislead themselves. We all do it, we all catch ourselves after the fact. Heres an example, a true example but names will be left out. Person X fills out a fun survey to be posted on the internet, where Person Y can clearly read it. Person X and Person Y have a long history. Many days together and memories made that will be remembered a life time. However, the status quo of the relationship of Person Y and Person X is now almost non-exsistant, memories are never forgotten, they are just stored away to be thought upon on occasion. Well in aboved mention survey, Person X is proposed with the question of a most missed memory. Now you can clearly assume, if your Person Y, that it should most likely be a memory from yesturyear with you and Person X. Although Person Y comes to discover it is not. Person X writes about a recent memory that is probably a good memory no doubt, but surely isn't the greatest. They just want to think its the greatest and when reality sets in, they'll be like "Oh, My Bad".

Have you ever realized that the more you want to see the person, the longer you go without seeing them, and the access of being able to talk to them on the internet just makes everything worse? I have come to realize that. A person catches your eye that you want to get to hang out with and become close with, but certain situations keep you from being able to do so at the present time. So when you see them online, you IM them at every moment possible to talk to them, to try and build a bond, although you may have nothing interesting to say. However bad you tell yourself "well, i'll just let them be, I wont be of a good conversationalist today" you still continue to IM, annoying them, making your image in their eyes less bright. Sometimes you just let it out of control. Hopefully when that day comes where you can see the person more frequently and not stress over talking to them online as much, maybe you can redeem yourself and can make things greater than ever imagined... Lets hope I can redeem myself.

People over use the word "Pimp" in this world. It annoys me to hear someone go "Yeah, I'm a Pimp." God, please strike me down if I ever call myself one. Before I continue, I wish to share the Merriam-Webster Dictionary definition of a pimp...
Main Entry: [1]pimp
Pronunciation: 'pimp
Function: noun
Etymology: origin unknown
Date: 1600
: a man who solicits clients for a prostitute
So, for those of who that call yourself a pimp because you think you get a lot of girls or that you have good skills with girls, I am here to correct you. The correct term you should use for yourself is womanizer. Now i'll list that definition...
Main Entry: wom·an·ize
Pronunciation: 'wu-m&-"nIz
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): -ized; -iz·ing
Date: 1593
transitive senses
: to make effeminate
intransitive senses
: to pursue multiple casual relationships with women
- wom·an·iz·er noun

Another thing that annoys me (sorry that I'm now going to go into political views) are the hypocrits about the current war in Iraq. Before entering and the early stages of the war, there was a high support of Americans to go into Iraq. I don't remember the numbers but it was lets say in the 70-80% Range. Now its down to around, if not somewhat under 50%. So lets just say there is a swing of 25%. This isn't to focus on that 25% but you 25% are pretty stupid "Lets get in a war, but if some soldiers die, I say I'd never supported the war." Now, for other critics. You constantly hear "most americans are against the war in Iraq." Yeah, there may be a majority now against it, but when it mattered, there was a majority for it. So all I have to say to those critcis who use that reasoning... Instead of using your time to whine, how about you go make a time machine? I'm sure you'll make as much progress working on a time machine then you'll have on getting the US out of Iraq.

Let the comments begin...

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bored [15 May 2005|01:10pm]
Name 20 of your friends below. Don't read questions first. Enter names at random and then answer questions accordingly

1 Andy
2 Trz
3 Sam
4 Keith
5 Nate
6 Matty K
7 Kevin
8 Whitiker
9 Pronovost
10 Tommy D
11 Delude
12 Kelly
13 Mo
14 Kim
15 Laura
16 Gaynut
17 Gooey
18 Mike
19 Jimmy
20 Calvin
21 Kaween

(if you're names not on the list, you were excluded only because i picked most of these at random...so don't be offended faggos)

Who is #8 going out with? Righty
Is #9 a boy or a girl? Girl (FATTY!)
Would #11 and #2 go out? They might if 2 wasn't married...
How about #18 and #4? oh yeah
What grade is #17 in? 2nd year college
When was the last time you talked to #12? yesturday
What is #6's favorite band? The Beatles
Does #1 have any siblings? Sister and brother-in-law
Would you ever date #3? Of course. its my sammy wammy
Would you ever date #7? so kevin, no love for u.
Is #16 single? always will be lol
What's #15's last name? Cyran
What's #5's middle name? Gregory?
What's #10's fantasy? to do a girl while in his goalie equpitment?
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? yeah
What school does #20 go to? none?
Tell me a random fact about #11? Hes pasty white
And #1: is really a woman
And #3: is really a woman
Have you ever had a crush on #16? can't say i have
Where does #9 live? chicopee or southwick? lol sad i know like nothing
What's #4's favorite color? blue
Would you makeout with #14? yes
Are #5 #6 best friends? no
Does #7 like #20? yes
Does #8 like #19? yes
How did you meet #15? junior prom
Does #10 have any pets? i don't remember :"(
Is #12 older than you? no
Give #13 a hug!! sure
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? oh yeah ;) lol jk
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yikes! i feel too liberal [10 May 2005|12:18am]

Your Political Profile



Overall: 95% Conservative, 5% Liberal

Social Issues: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Ethics: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal


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"I'm writing again, these letters to you.... [04 May 2005|12:37am]
[ mood | hyper ]

On much I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart"

So much has been going on lately. School is almost over, but after tomorrow, all my papers will be done and what not so the last week will be a breeze. Thursday, going to Hartford to get Straylight Run tickets then seeing them on Friday!... Gummy bears + moving car + being the ones throwing them = little remorse... I've always been an impatient person, but this time, i'm gonna give it plenty of time.

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just had to post this... [24 Apr 2005|05:25pm]
on aol news, theres a headline... "Skydiver Loses Legs, Dies"... so what if he loses legs? hes dead!
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[31 Mar 2005|10:11pm]
welp, found out "she" has a bf... nough said
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What a difference a day makes [30 Mar 2005|10:29pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Yesturday, knee gets really bad, make doctor appointment for it :-\. Go to register for classes, things were all messed up and i couldn't. Felt pretty sick, just headache what not. All and all, a shit day.

Today, go to class, talk to "she" aftewards, got her number, hopefully hanging out with her sometime soon. Registered for classes, got all my first choices. Got free soft serve ice cream. Was a GREAT day.

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[28 Mar 2005|12:36pm]
1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: Sneakers Charpentier
(Name of first pet / Street where you live)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: White Cheddar Popcorn Arthur
(Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name)

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: Dell Applebees
(First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant)

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: Dilweed Stillwater
(Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot)

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: Butthead Chicopee
(Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied)

6. "FLY GIRL/BOY" ALIAS: S.Cle
(First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name)

7. ICON ALIAS: Tylenol Beer
(Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen)

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: Kitten Comp
(Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School)

9. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: Bradley South Bay
(Middle Name / Street Where You First Lived)

10. ROCK STAR ALIAS: Snickers Karaba
(Favorite Candy / Last Name Of Favorite Musician)

11. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: Stcle Sichi
( First 2 letters of your first name and the first 3 Letters from your last name makes your first name.
Take the first 2 letters of your mother's maiden name and the first 3 letters of the city you were born in for your last name)
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Oh What a Night [27 Mar 2005|01:22am]
[ mood | chipper ]

So... Day started out going bowling... Came home, showered, made myself sexy ;) lol... Then Nate called me, went to try and cash my check. Bank closed my freaking checking account and i couldn't cash it and stop & shop so we went to mall. Met up with Brianne and Jess. I bought the t-shirt i wanted from american eagle thats green and says "Stumble Inn". Then Brie and Jess left. So me and nate headed back to my house. Went to Arby's and got 5 arby's melts for $5, i only ate four of them, they were AMAZING! Then Nate had some wendy's. On the way to Big Y, Nate and I saw an abandoned motorized wheelchair on the side of Memorial Drive, curious where the crippled was (sorry if crippled offends u, its to just be blunt and truthful). We get to Big Y. I see Brielman, Dan D., and Matty J. Big Y wont cash my check either. So i just ended up buying a snapple (like everyone should ;) ). On the way out, Isabelle, who was working floral, saw me and waved and yelled to me so I went and talk to her for a bit :D. I'm so oblivious to clues.... lol... So anyways, I brought Nate home and head home. Around 6-6:30, Tommy D came online and I talked to him and we made plans to hang out. So he came over around 7. I went with Tom to visit Val at work. We then preceeded to the mall, again i'm at the mall. We walked by all the chinese/japanese/oriental/desert moon restaurants and... NONE! of them offered us a free sample. when u want a free sample, u can't get one, and when u don't want one, a thousands oriental people are pestering you. We then preceeded to american eagle so i could show tom the awesome sneaks i'm getting. While on the way out, a girl asked us if we wanted to sign up for an american eagle credit card, and i said yes cuz i felt bad for her cuz she didn't have any apps yet (and she was ::cough:: good looking ::cough::) lol. so then tom suckered into signing up for one. i was deined, but tom was accpeted lol. Sorry Tom, its a conspiracy i tell ya. So we talked to 2 of the girls there for like 20-25 mins then headed on. On our adventure, we ran into malave, bigos, maybe other people, had an awkward experience in an elevator. So we came back to my house, played some halo 2, visited tubgirl.com, everyone should go lol. He left around 10 so go see val for a bit so i just decided to stay in. Talked to Laura from 11 till like 12:30, probably going to movies friday. Now, its 1:30am, i'm not too tired although i've been up since 9 and only had 5 hours of sleep. but overal, its been a good day. I'm changing and i'm glad.

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I'm rich byatch [26 Mar 2005|09:07am]
I am worth $2,144,130.00 on HumanForSale.com
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yeah yeah yeah, heartfilled shit. [19 Mar 2005|12:21am]
[ mood | content ]

So its been awhile since I made an actual update, an update other than song lyrics. Sorry Kevin that I didn't make the lyrics cuts, I don't like spending more time on this shit than I have to lol. Call me greedy if you want. So anyways...

You all know the shit I've been through and if you don't, its in my past and I don't care to relive it in the present. I still think about things a lot, but I'm over that. I'm changing the person I am. Trying to not take things to heart so much anymore, cuz you just get burned in the end. I've done some of the "cleaning out my closet" but there is a little bit more I have to do, but its always been hard for me to bring it up cuz of how I fear how people will react. Normally, my instincts don't fail me, but I always question them.

I always stress being with someone too much. In the last 3 years, I haven't been single for more than 2 months at a time. In those 3 years, I haven't gone a month without having a date (to define date, hang out with a girl and have some kind of cuddle or kiss or what not). Its been 3 weeks now, but eh. My friends mean as much to me, and I'm learning to value friendships more.

Theres been rumors that Straylight Run is coming to WSC for Spring Weekend. I think this is just a rumor, but if its true, it will be AWESOME! For those of you who don't know who Straylight Run is, they're an awesome band. They sound a lot like Something Corporate. I highly suggest you go to StraylightRun.com and listen to "Existentialism on Prom Night".

I'm going to get my hair cut. I'm debating that if I should eventually highlight it or something. I'm kinda getting sick of the same ol' same ol' hair style. You people should leave some suggestions.

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[03 Mar 2005|09:22pm]
Jet "Look What You've Done"

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
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once again, more lyrics [02 Mar 2005|02:09pm]
Bon Jovi "Always"

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
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[01 Mar 2005|11:30pm]
more lyrics for you. i've been on the roll (kinda) for finding songs to fit the mood, whether its the mood of how i feel or how i wish certain people feel or what not.

Yellowcard "Only One"

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

(Interlude)

Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one!
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what a night [27 Feb 2005|03:53am]
All I have to update is lyrics... these r lyrics r for one person, read them and think about them...

Howie Day "Collide"

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
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[13 Feb 2005|05:10pm]
01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. Am I loveable?
03. How long have you known me?
04. When and where did we first meet?
05. What was your first impression?
06. Do you still think that way about me now?
07. What do you think my weakness is?
08. Do you think I'll ever get married?
09. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. What is my best quality?
13. How well do you think you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think that I could kill someone?
17. Who would play me in a movie?
18. If I were to be a color, what one would I be?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
21. Do you think that I am stubborn?
22. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
23. Have you ever liked me as more than a friend?
24. What do you think im going to be when I grow up?
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